Friday, February 24, 2006
i was just wondering why are we brought to this world with so much sufferings and so little happiness. cause most of the time we hear people ranting about things around them, their life, their job, families and friends etc. but why some people have lesser things to rant about and some people just suffer in pain silently. talking about suffering in pain silently. they are none others but our own great parents. people might have much grievance and grumbles about their parents just like i do sometimes. especially when they don't get you things we yearn for or they just nagged at us for some stupid reason we think. we flare up, start shouting , yelling and throwing tantrums. At times, when we are not at our right state of mind, cut to the quick and injurious words starts blabbering out from our mouths and actually they don't even weigh a feather to us but weigh a hundred tons ( ha. no sure if there's a hundred tons) to them and they just suffer silently don't they?
They give you the best which you think is still not what best stands for or rather they TRY to give you the best. They took up the resposibilities to bring you to this Earth. Work hard to be able to give you a roof above you and work even harder to allow you to get your needs. I should say, or if you think it's only my assumptions, but i do think that humans are selfish. Most things they do are normally for themselve aint it? lets say you are working will you work just for the money for your friends? girl/boy friends? TRY HARD to provide them with things they want instead of yourself, like how our parents work and worry for us. Maybe for once and twice but can you for ALL YOUR LIFE for
OTHERS?
come to think of it other than ourselves, any one elses are regard as others right? so why does our parents do everything or even give up their lives for some others, their children. We, the children, care more about ourselves am i right? we always think about ourselves first than others. even to our parents we felt this way too. They don't expect the least requite from us yet they are still giving, keep giving and we just kept taking. it's such a shame really. Does filial piety really exist? how much piety we should show to repay all their love, hardwork , worries and even the money they used to foster us. the answer is never enough. And are we doing the least we can to repay? question yourself.
Not everyone is born with a silver spoon in their mouth. i'm not. but i used to spend like i do or i should say more than i can afford but i didn't know how hard my dad has to work and how my mum suffered just to least ensure my life remain square or make it even better. i wasted my days doing all those insipid and meaningless things. i wasn't doing my least for them. when mum was telling me about how disappointed she is with sis. i couldn't hold onto my tears. Though i couldn't feel the heartache in her cause i was never a mother of someone but i was another worry to her and it adds on to her heartache for not being sensible enough to do the rightful things a daughter should do at my age now. i end up crying in my mum's arms and both of us just cried. it beyond all words to show my gratitude and how grateful i feel towards my parents.
i love you mum and dad.<3.
your daughter,
erica.
