life is beautiful with you;
10:56 PM
10:56 PM
oh shit oh shit. i'm having test today..... argh!!! accounts is sucking my blood. i really suck at it. it's a hard week to pass and today's the last day of my hardship before the long week holiday. -screams-...... SELENE ONG: I WANT THE ORANGE ONE!!!!!!! and i want -grin- hahahaha. see you!
life is beautiful with you;
2:30 PM
2:30 PM
i love my chanel coco mademoiselle.
life is beautiful with you;
4:47 PM
4:47 PM
awww man.. i thought 100 dollars was just enough for this year's CNY. but i didn't know where all the money came out from that made me spend about 200 dollars this year!!!. hmm hmm.. everywhere in town was packed with people the last week end. but i got myself quite lots of things with this $200
life is beautiful with you;
11:34 PM
11:34 PM
tonight MIGHT be some night that i didnt expect this night will come. ha.did i confuse you? it's ok. when i thought i lost something. no things i would say but thankfully the words ruiqing said made me felt better that i wasn't just standing alone in the world, on this Earth. i am grateful that i had someone tt is more than just a friend i knew years back . it's just like no one knows what happen tomorrow. mayb we will be gone like how this happen today. like i didn't know i would ever feel this way. when you thought friendship comes stronger than any other relationship after kins of course or maybe on the same gauge but now, the special ones i thought would last eternally stops here. the lost of connection, faith, bonds and identities. had prolly made me lost a friend or rather a pair of them. it maybe just a pitshop in this run and after all, things may still continue but things do change a lil. it's still sad for such things to happen. i hope there won't be more to go. to selene, maurice, qing and jialiang. thanks for advising and sometimes trying to make situations seems better. chai and lene we should meet up soon tgt ((: qing. i felt i should say sorry though i was my decision for letting go. but i still have to apologise that that has caused a distance in our friendship. i don't know when will this go away but i hope it does somehow. and finally for mr shawn wan jialiang(in full) a million thanks for being everything in this world when i'm going through all kinds of things all this while ((: annie and charmaine. all the best to both your lives. may god bless both you and your families. i'm thankful that we are still talking that's all. anyways, i'm still one call away. 8 nos away. ((: ciao.
life is beautiful with you;
12:24 AM
12:24 AM
been talking to hannah this whole afternoon. really glad that she has open up more to ppl around. when i used to worry about will she be able to adapt the new life in a new environment. but haha guess i worried too much. it's good that i talked to her and somethings she said awaken me. prolly that will bring much more things to my life. someone like me, tt didn't start early thinking bout what i have to do with my life and nv had goals and thoughts of how to work towards them fell really hard. which proved that i learnt lessons the god damn hard way. it's late but better than never and be daring to admit to what you fails at and show that you climb up all over again from where you fell. hannah: nv look back look forward. and come to think of this sentence. it somehow proves alot that looking back demoralise people and tend to devastate ppl's confidence. so i shall keep up the faith and just hope everything will go well this coming years. all these only started when i had my lessons with francis a year back and his words made me realise making plans and working hard towards it made everyday's life better than before . having a right principle and attitude, discipline oneself to achieve something in life. growing up really takes up alot of courage but it's a fact that everyone have to face and now it's only the start of my/our journey. wish everyone around me luck -winks. right gotta go revise my work. ((:
life is beautiful with you;
3:36 PM
3:36 PM
<3loves
heeehaaa. i'm home. ((: went to mum's place for 4 days. not exactly. days passes faster there. mum installed global tv channel so i had more things to do at home. i was fed so much everyday there. i couldn't care less bout how i dress when i'm there. always in my tracksuit top, tee, shorts , messed up hair and shades cause none i know there. went to this newly opened shopping mall. to my surprise everything there was like sg and of course as expensive too. everytime i go to mum's place i always get lots of things for myself. every place we go she knows i want something. i need to change my tatics -grins- i love mum so much. ((: the dumbest thing was we couldn't find our car cause that whole damn car park was too big.
mum gets upset the whole day cause some one commented on her complexion. as you know, when people gets old they don't look that radiant. yea. i was asked so many things " mummy not pretty already???" ( regular Q and only one RIGHTFUL ans) -luffs. menopause women. -shake head- spare a thought for them. i'm kind :P
was kinda crossed the last few days that i don't get my $$$ for CNY clothes but it's ok. there's new year every year and i know mum had tried her best to get me what she can afford plus another extra 100 bucks from her own pocket though i can't get much but i guess i'll just save it for something else.
super tired now. but i have class later on. think i need to meet up with lene to study , catch up more on my work and lunch with all others to see what i had missed these few weeks. plus start moving my ass away from the sofa in the afternoon and get a job. gotta run. ciao. life is beautiful with you;
3:36 PM
3:36 PM
my current wallpaper. i just find it cute ((:
won't it be good if we get to live there? interesting uh -luffs
mum's having serious menopause. just be happy that i didn't scream back at her for god's sake. it's raining cats and dogs everyday. it makes going out super troublesome. anyways the rainy esplanade looks especially depressing. i don't know why but chicken puff at the library was yummay-luffs.
rainy days somehow means gloomy day. aint it? or am i being a lil pessimistic here. right, forgive me if i was.
i thought it's really bad to laugh at lene's friend when she was talking about her problems days back but it was lene's fault ( you should know why you ass!) but i do felt sorry for her. relationships always has these potentials. smiling now and crying the next moment. loving him/her so much back then but now in a dilemma of moving on or giving up. but what could be worst than "when things were too late". at the end of it, there's a fact to face regardless it's good or bad. oh being pessimistic again? haha. sorry. i just felt a little sympathetic that moment.
well well, at this moment which's what i care more for i should minimize every possiblilty of any problems and just enjoy my student days before real responsiblities comes hunting me down, soon! shit. but i'm still having a well grip of life.
too much expectations might leads to huge disappointments but when you least expect things, there are always surprises((: that's what colours up life each day. -winks- how galvanizing. lol.
next week will be the shopping week for CNY. but not gonna buy anything fancy. just some tees. i just found i have less then 5 tees in my messed up wardrobe ((: and probably a jeans and sandals as pathetic 200 dollars don't do much help. and probably after new year i have to get myself a new MP3 i can't go anywhere without one. talking about this, flames and smoke starts fuming from my head. i hate DAD. it's ok. i always have my own ways. life is beautiful with you;
6:41 PM
6:41 PM
finally i'm back again. ((: woke up very early this morning at 10 just in case i wanna laze longer in bed so to be accurate i got up at 1030, prepare everything and went out to meet lene. today's weather's really unkind to me. once i step out of the lift, it started to rain though it was still shiny and bright out there. thought that the rain will go away soon but right after that thought it got heavier. SHIT. i took the long way to the train station. out of the shelter god damn it. it stop!. we were at PS, having some snacks and the rain stopped but shit once we left, it started to rain again. we were caught in the rain all the way from PS to wisma. i was SEMI- drenched, lene was HALF- drenched. ilhammi was ALL drench. -luffs. but it's really been long i've walked in the rain. but i'm having a headache now. i spend all my assets at once. for hair cut, clothes, bag, accessories and food ((: can you believe i didn't trim my hair for freaking 8 months. haha. it was like a bush of hay super difficult to manage and it takes very long to dry especially when i wash my hair at night and normally go to bed with wet hair. i had super straight hair today that made me feel a lil awkward. not really used to seeing my hair that stiff and dead. oh well but it's nice right after i step out of the saloon then fidget here n there it messed up again. HAHAHA. i think i'm still better in my pony tail. today's a rewarding day, i got almost all the things i wanted to look for. good ((: but of course it's NEVER ENOUGH. ((: CNY around the corner and i can hear "them" calling n YES! ANG BAOS. -grin- right. gotta go take a shower now. bye..... lene: hey thanks for today. ((: will go shop for CNY clothes together again <3loves. don't think too much ok. just remember what i told you tt time and things happen for a reason . but after the rain there's ALWAYS sunshine. trust me ((: send my regards to your baboo hope he get well soon (:
life is beautiful with you;
10:29 PM
10:29 PM
