CITY OF ANGELS

dad wasnt at home and it was the first time ever i was sick and i'm alone at home. sounds pathetic i know. anyways. 5 panadols didn't make my fever subside. damn those panadols yes. useless pills. and if that didn't help and i was to take another 3 more i would prolly over dose myself and they still don't help. anyways, when for tuition this morning at 9. waited for that golly long shutter bus from 850 to 815. and that made my limps even weaker though i force a bread down this morning but looks like it isn't enough cause i felt like vomitting but nothing came out from my mouth. francis recommended this antelope horns. -laughs.-ok. it's suppose to be chinese herbs la. but it wasn't that bad cause it's not black. so it look more edible to me. just that it's a lil sour and sweet cause i add rock sugar. and it looks like a bunch of stripped papers. and some kinda grass. that you can see anywhere ard us. i'm suppose to drink 3 cups of it. and now i' m only at my 2nd. one more to go. thought taking a nap would help. and i didn't know chinese herb makes ppl drowsy too. so yes i slept but got up and temperature increased. and dad was also down will a fever of 37.3. no one is willing to buy dinner. so cook porridge. and i nv tried cooking porridge so i don't know how will it turn out to be like. it's still boiling :P but it wasn't tt bad cause without dad and grandmum at home ( they don't even know i'm sick anyways!) my friends were checking on me every minute. so yeah. thanks guys. ((: it wasn't tt bad after all. will probably see a doctor if it's still not recovering in the next few hours. ok. gotta go now. and hope the next time i blog. fever is gone haha. ok sounds kinda stupid. right. thanks peeps. will see all of you tomorrow.

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8:06 PM

down with a fever of 37.5 degrees. -applause- anyways i had quite lots of fun today. was trying to hold my vomit in the bus from pasir ris till i get home. felt better after that. i think i throw all the chicken supreme and hawaiian lovers out. they look kinda gosh. redish.. urgh. okok. :)) tuition at 9am. SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!! gotta take a shower a gorge myself with 5 panadols. and off to bed wrapping myself in 2 layers of comforter. -laughs- alright night ppl.

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10:06 PM

met them after tuition. the whole class was laughing about his acting. he really sucks at it. and i hope that's not his only "talent" anyways, wasn't feeling right after tuition. it's either because i ate that bar of toberlone or i kana from ann. or francis's house was too cold or macdonalds. or i told mum it's been long since i last fell sick. and now. see! . a night with sore throat and flu almost killed me. couldn't breathe through the nose and by breathing through my mouth makes my throat even drier. even swallowing saliva hurts. i practically didn't sleep for the whole night. and having weird dreams. now my limps are feeling weak and next i'm bout to get a fever i'm sure. everything taste so blend. god. exam is coming . this always came so right on time. and today i'm going ESCAPE!!!!!!!!!! hw great can that be. no choice but to go. oh lets just pray that that cures me. ((: right! gotta run.

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10:30 AM

who's next to go. ha. me ((:

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7:48 PM

the guzmans. so blissed ((: mum's angels. the family. we <3 mum. the big day was finally over. sis was handed to miguel and that's lifetime promise that he will take good care of her. their "i dos" were very sweet. the whole afternoon i was helping everyone. and at the very last min my hair was still undone. i slip on to my almost "rusty" heels and i really had difficulty walking in it. sis looked gorgeous in her gown, mum look damn sexy with her black top. and daddy look as toot as ever la. yes and my nigga bro rushed to the tea chapter after his casting... hahaha. police and thief.. -faints. haha. when we asked how did miguel purposed sis were grinning so happily. miguel gave her an eraser and of course a ring. and there's a story behind it. when they were classmates 5 years back in Rada. miguel always borrow eraser from my sister. so one day she got frustrated so she cut hers and gave another half to him. and from then love sparks strikes everytime they see each other in class. ohhhhhhhh how corny. ((: anyways. the 30 year old woman is finally married. -relieved. anyways, everyone looked fabulous tt day. thanks for coming girls. ((:

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2:58 AM

there wasn't a single soul home yesterday. yes including me. decided to stay over last night. but you never seen 19 ppl in one room. god. sandwiching. and we really look like refugees but i had lots of fun really ((: ppl are still as "crapish" and funny as usual. came home ard 1 plus when dad came back after me. so he got no clue where did i go last night. lol. and went out straight after changing with them again. i look exactly like a dead man walking today. i fell asleep everywhere i go, in the car, tables, chairs, bus. and as i was crossing the road that will take 10 more secs for me to reach the lift suddenly my vision went blur. can't see straight now. but it's been a problem this few days that things appear to be a lil blurred. but can't be bothered to see a optician. prolly it's just too much of late nights and staring on com screens and now my lens are just gonna go thicker that's all. now. i'm going to bed. get some beauty sleep cause i don't wanna look like shit on tues. ((: yesyes. good night.

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10:06 PM

was out with acs today. everyone looked different today. maine's in relax wear finally i get to see her orange pants. lene's in her von dutch girly skirt and tight fit top woooo. nice, ann look older but younger in someways. i'm finally in my camisole that sis bought for me. it's like an identity change today. and my last pair of pathetic charles and keith sandals gave way today. -claps. and i just throw it in the bin after buy another pair of flip flops again. lol. i have too many of them. tonight is so quiet. no maine, ann, dad and sis. ): maine and ann are in chalet. but will be joining them tomorrow after JL book out meantime will be studying with selina and weiling in the morning. don't know to stay over or go home. cause mum will be back anytime and i don't want her to be home alone cause dad is on a cruise trip and sis will be at the hotel with miguel. couldn't think of any present that i can get for them. hmmm. her colleagues booked a suite at sharaton as a wedding gift. but i asked a stupid Q if i could go there too. dumb. hmmm. was told not to wear it. but when i do. i felt you are with me. it made me feel that it's still going on. it's still working. so even if i'm not suppose to wear it. but it's a gift and it's actually more than a gift to me. so i will start wearing it where ever i go. ((: and hope things will be better. alright gotta go. night peeps. and sorry for my ludicrous talks again.

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12:07 AM

ting dong ting dong. dong dong ting dong( wedding bells)suppose to be.. lalala. ok lame. but i'm just too happy for this coming tuesday's BIG BIG BIG DAY. ((: and my girls will be sharing my happiness together with me on that day. not like it's my wedding but. haha. i'm just way too happy and just wanna share it with them together with my family. with all my blessings. you will be the most fortunate woman. and the most gorgeous lady on that day and for the rest of your life, my lovely sis. ((: be blessed. and i love you.

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12:16 AM

started with my study plan today. haha. and i ROUGHLY went through one unit of math today. lol. bk was a heaven today. cause it had nv been so quiet in the late afternoon. but i was still trying very hard to concentrate and stay focus on my books when THIS COUPLE ... ERHEM- coughs- were hugging, knocking each others heads. oh yes. and did i mention kissing for countless time. instead of counting nos. on my books, i'm counting the times they -coughcough-but i lost count sorry guys. haha. but it's really sweet. it's like for a 239487238724 years i last seen this. i'm happy for you. i mean the both of you. really. ((: life's good isn't it. everything will be fine cause you have EACH OTHER. it's true ((: and i suppose the television in his house is much nicer than the one you have at home uh... -grin- it's 1.19am what time will you be going home baby. LOL. your mum is going to call me.... when to serangoon with haowen, ann and chee hong. lol. and after seating his car. i swear i will know my way to every single place the next time i drive. rounding here and there really made me felt groggy and dizzy after reaching home. driving really sucks. haha but i probably won't drive. tomorrow will be another boring day. but i gotta force my ass down and start revising another unit. but my "assholes" are asking me to go here and there with them. argh i feel like throwing out now. i gotta go to bed. night and love you people.

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1:07 AM

for my darling girls only. ann: i read it. yes. i'm glad that i was the reason you thought of at the moment when it went deep down into your flesh you asshole. -kick- try it again and i will do it to you face. you bet. life will be still good without him. live it for YOURSELF. you ANG MOH LOOKING GIRL . hahahaha. :P maine: so cind. did you get caught after going home ((: i love you man. tell me better jokes. not those old ones that you had repeated 101th time. lene: sigh. tiny. what i know is i had really NEVER seen you that happy ever. and i felt really sure when i see you smiling so sweetly this few days though you look no difference compared to an idiot. but yes. you been thinking too much, things that might not possibly happen just your thoughts. 4 years of WAITING is not nothing. and i bet you are his greatest gift ever. ((: be blessed for being that ok. i don't know if he loves you more than any another guy had .but for all i know you will be in good hands if you are with him. do something baby. don't let it slip away. you know what i mean. it's one in a million you can find someone that can make you go gaga each and everyday like a COMPLETE IDIOT you ass. bitch. ((:

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3:47 PM

complain and complain. yeah. so girls is this BIG enough for you to see??? ((: haha. went for tuition yesterday. as exams are drawing near my math is getting worse. ha. i don't know why.sigh. but after that i went to maine's house before meeting ann and lene for dinner. erhem. watching vcds at home with her ilmeme. while i was lock outside maine's house cause she was having a shower and walked out when she's in towel. haha. not been going to town with them often this few days. didn't know they could break a record of having 200 over pictures in one night. holy shit. you guys must be having aches all over your faces. ((: dinner at 925 was better than ever i don't know why. ha. maybe because it's a friday night and i'm with all my girls. oh yes and kuppo. then ill meme came to meet us and went to mac for a lil talk. and started to play this dumb "so called fortune telling game" uh. but i was nail to the fact for 3 fucking times ok!. how true can this be. ha. but anyways then we decided to ask some corny Qs. -grin- haha. when the 4 of us gather. hmmhmm what sort of Qs can we ask?. right. ha. nevertheless the game was stupid but still entertaining. lil talk wasn't enough so kuppo went home to take his keys and drove us to seletar. for more lil talk and craps. ha. his car got infested by ants. poor car. with this new guy QD whom drove a mazda. ERHEM. that's not the pt. the point is someone is interested in somebody. alright but i found he look like coach. but a male version. it can't be any obvious that he's flirting my girl. RIGHT in front of my face. ha. i bet he doesn't know you belong to me. haha. if you are seeing this. lol. no harm you know what i mean. -grin- just a lil too exaggerating and er, perharps irritating . no.. no.. nothing much right. fine -ok- then we went to this coffee shop to chill and maine came back. ha. cinderalla attempt to sneak out successfully. haha silly girl. and jialiang came. ho he's so burnt and -swallows- growing bigger. haha. i dragged him to sit with me at the back of the car cause i felt a lil uncomfortable alone behind with ann tt QD. basically i just kept my mouth shut before jialiang was with me. seriously i miss those days. but our good old days won't be back i know bestfriend. drove to mandai to look for this " oh so nice tower" which i wasn't quite impress after seeing it . ha. we climbed up this long spiral stairs haha and guys like kuppo and jinyong were so scare. girls are exceptionally cause we are ENTITLED to be timid ok. we came down leaving jialiang and ann upstairs hoping you know .... hmmm. but i dont' think so. then all decided to go home. then again i was thrown at the back seat. and he drove me home with super sonic speed from yishun to amk he took less than 5 min. god. and haha. of course he drove ann home using all his time he could waste you see. ((: damn, the lift black out i was scared the hell out. i stood outside like an idiot didn't know to take the damn lift or walk the freaking stairs so i stand there for a minute. and decided to run up the stairs. -cries. it was already 5 when i reached home. and went to bed straight after i took my shower. but it's been long i run around with them this way. but yesterday was good. ((: but it would be better if others were here.

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3:11 PM

god. i came across this blogthingy . haha. for entertainment of course but some were quite true. ha. but not on the part about me being a eunuch. god that will nv happen man. i still like man. had dinner with ACS today. ann is still ann. but just a lil more crazy today. maine is always telling us how much she's in love. AND!!! haha. someone is crazily in love. jumping ard too much today. smile and grinning to herself for no apparent reason . hmmmhmmm-grin. like a love fool really . but it's good to see you this way. haha. it's only left with me where everything still remains and prolly ann will be my lesbo again . right baby. -smile- haha. sound sick. lol. i know.. hmmm. was kind of upset over some matter after knowing what is actually happening between them. it hurts alot deep down. but i know there's nothing i can do to mend this broken up relationship and communication. i can see pain in her eyes and heartbreaks from her words. how i wish she can be here everyday or i would rather say i'll be by her side every single day. i have 1 million and 1 reasons or more how much i wish she's here. how much i love her and miss her every single day. if only life could be better for her over there, being here at least i know life is smooth for her and happy on the other side i would do what ever it takes to see her often no matter how busy she will be. but if you come home there won't be any pain and heartbreaks i swear. how long will this be.. i had always been wondering till now. 17 years of my life. alright. off to bed. night peeps.

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1:37 AM

Your Birthdate: April 13

Being born on the 13th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer, but it may also give you a tendency to dominate people a bit. You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize. Sincere and honest, you are a serious, hard working individual. Your feeling are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times. You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details. Your intolerance and insistence on complete accuracy can be irritating to some.

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12:47 AM

ACS, see you guys on wednesday. and keep missing me yea. lol. ((:

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12:36 AM

had a simple dinner with my family today. that includes my brother. mom gave him a peck on his cheek and he blushed. lol. man. a lil boy still when it comes to their mother. today's dinner was sumptuous ((: but we had this weird looking soup that looks like mom had threw pads into the pot and boil it with water. gross. but we were forced to drink 3 bowls of it. and i actually poured one of them back when none was looking. and thanks to that good damn gross but " it's all good for you" soup i had diarrhoea after dinner while i missed most of part of constantine. even bro gotta knock on my door to hurry me out cause he need to pee. after that i gorge myself with pears and oranges and lots and lots of plain water. hope that will help. but now i'm still feeling a little unwell. i better go to bed now before it starts all over again. :)) hmmmhmmmm. sorry. excuse me for being so gross today. ha. alright. off to bed. good night ppl. ((:

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12:37 AM

those memories. those days. thanks for being an absolute darling. came across my sketches and saw this. and i remembered those days., when i'm crazily drawing till dawn breaks almost every single day. going shopping with mum and sis to get something for ourselves for her coming wedding. man, i can't believe my mum bought the new samsung phone secretly. and she actually take pictures of her own and all sort of nonsense. oh mum.... if you are seeing this , you should know i'm disappoint over what you did last night. come on, it's a dream. and seriously i hate to say this. but it's over. you know it. but why are you finding 101 reasons to convince yourself. maybe i don't know well enough. but stop doing such things. it's not the first time you know it. and this doesn't help to solve or cure the pain. please take care of yourself alright. you know i still love you like the past. it's hurting to see you in such state now. do something! start anew baby. will be in town tomorrow i will drop by alright.

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11:42 PM

bring me to where i should be. lalalalala i'm so bored.... just too bored. haha. mum is back today. got no mood for tuition and i did badly for today's paper . i don't know why. i just wish time can zoom pass so fast and when i open my eyes. yeah. exam is over. lala. okok. i'm going for my dinner now. argh. i haven't eat for the whole day.. that's all for now. bye.

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7:48 PM

yesterday night was a long but fun night. hmm. we gorge ourselves with food, drinks, cig and all sorts of things la. we chill, joke, laugh and sing. lene got "sabotaged" and had this face that look like she just tripped and fell into a bucket of shit. lol. sorry man. but somebody gotta do it. and poor maine got her top all stained by the chocolate fudge that we smashed on lene's face. but fast reactors like ann and i nv get caught. -winks. we stay out till 6 in the morning play all sorts of stupid games. serious. but it's fun cause we were bored. and ERHEM. -coughs- mr eye candy is so quiet. hope you like the presents we got for you. you should know who know you best don't you -grin- good news. ha. a very good one for me at least. cause finally i'm getting rid the pain in my ass on the 25th oct. WOOOOHHOOOO. ms iyvone is getting married. lol. and i'm the precious unmarried gem home now. lol. but a 30 year old woman should really get married by now. hahaha. and lil sis-in-law should get a gift. don't you think so? something like a necklace or a new dress for your wedding. a big hongbao i don't mind too. uh huh uh huh . yes yes? hahaha. but lucky it will not be something big like those traditional wedding when you have the whole afternoon running here and ther and dinnner at night, inviting whole lotsa ppl that you don't even know , toasting to you like some kinda idiot. they will be having a solemnization at this tea chapel and a cruise dinning with my family and some of her good friends. i hate man that hits women. bloody loser. i can't imagine if she's still with such a loser. and can't wait to know how will he react when he know she's getting married. hahaha. shame on you. ass!. in her exprience. man that show violence like venting anger by hitting the hall, kicking things around, punching things and throwing things in front of their partner these people tend to use violence against their gfs. WTF. come to think of it i have quite alot of guys around me does that. tsktsk. scary. these creatures shall die. you are so pathetic, you have no friends, you doubt your gf, you lick my bro's ass. you rely on women. total failure. i hate you from the start i see you when i was 5. i swear. ha. but what ever it is. sis got herself a perfect man. -bows-. if only i get one now i will be so blissed. so i don't have even think about anything else like what others is having in their mind about their exs , their new crush or those kinda i like this person but he likes someone else sort of thing. blah blah. everything is so perfect. but haha. that nv happen to people like me. so yes. i shall just dream. ((: alright. night people.

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1:38 AM