CITY OF ANGELS

i'm back again. weekend was good and lots of food and i'm seriously putting on lots of weight. arhhhh.... got so many mosquito bites. it's itching all over my legs. shit. can't bear the itch. oh god.... how the hell can i ease the itch. it's starting to bleed.. oh gross shit i know... i just can't stand it.mum said it's because i'm too meaty that's why. -roll eyes- she had this new hair style that i think really suits her perfectly. she should have style her hair that way long ago.

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12:24 AM

i was just wondering why are we brought to this world with so much sufferings and so little happiness. cause most of the time we hear people ranting about things around them, their life, their job, families and friends etc. but why some people have lesser things to rant about and some people just suffer in pain silently. talking about suffering in pain silently. they are none others but our own great parents. people might have much grievance and grumbles about their parents just like i do sometimes. especially when they don't get you things we yearn for or they just nagged at us for some stupid reason we think. we flare up, start shouting , yelling and throwing tantrums. At times, when we are not at our right state of mind, cut to the quick and injurious words starts blabbering out from our mouths and actually they don't even weigh a feather to us but weigh a hundred tons ( ha. no sure if there's a hundred tons) to them and they just suffer silently don't they? They give you the best which you think is still not what best stands for or rather they TRY to give you the best. They took up the resposibilities to bring you to this Earth. Work hard to be able to give you a roof above you and work even harder to allow you to get your needs. I should say, or if you think it's only my assumptions, but i do think that humans are selfish. Most things they do are normally for themselve aint it? lets say you are working will you work just for the money for your friends? girl/boy friends? TRY HARD to provide them with things they want instead of yourself, like how our parents work and worry for us. Maybe for once and twice but can you for ALL YOUR LIFE for OTHERS? come to think of it other than ourselves, any one elses are regard as others right? so why does our parents do everything or even give up their lives for some others, their children. We, the children, care more about ourselves am i right? we always think about ourselves first than others. even to our parents we felt this way too. They don't expect the least requite from us yet they are still giving, keep giving and we just kept taking. it's such a shame really. Does filial piety really exist? how much piety we should show to repay all their love, hardwork , worries and even the money they used to foster us. the answer is never enough. And are we doing the least we can to repay? question yourself. Not everyone is born with a silver spoon in their mouth. i'm not. but i used to spend like i do or i should say more than i can afford but i didn't know how hard my dad has to work and how my mum suffered just to least ensure my life remain square or make it even better. i wasted my days doing all those insipid and meaningless things. i wasn't doing my least for them. when mum was telling me about how disappointed she is with sis. i couldn't hold onto my tears. Though i couldn't feel the heartache in her cause i was never a mother of someone but i was another worry to her and it adds on to her heartache for not being sensible enough to do the rightful things a daughter should do at my age now. i end up crying in my mum's arms and both of us just cried. it beyond all words to show my gratitude and how grateful i feel towards my parents. i love you mum and dad.<3. your daughter, erica.

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12:50 PM

finally had enough rest. but i guess it was more than enough. i got up feeling i was bout to throw out and start wobbly to the toilet when my version turned blur and all sorts of colourful broken up pieces started appearing, bee buzzing noise in my ears, i squatted for awhile on the floor and took a rest on the sofa . i got cold sweat all over my palms, forehead and arms. after regaining much conscious i saw my face was as white like a sheet of paper. scare the freak out of me. that's probably the fairest moment i am in the whole 18 years of my life. -laughs. ok. but it was quite scary. stayed home the whole day. finally have the time to talk to mummy. everytime she comes back we always have alot to talk about. after dinner we went down for a little walk. mum and i bought the same clothes. i made her wear tight fitting orange polo and indeed she look great in it. i bought myself some too and we got the same bottom .we spent 180 just in the neighbourhood. haha. and mine cost me about a whole week's allowance but anyhow i'm happy with it. mum offered to pay for me but i refused over some reasons la. i'm meeting lene to study today. today's is nehneh's off day you see. hoho. there' quite alot to write actually but due to i have punctuality problem i gotta go now. be back to update more soon. have a nice day ppl. ciao ((:

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11:26 AM

oh i'm super exhausted now. and why am i still here? ha. ulimate reason:RANT la. then? what more? insanity. oh golly, now i understand how working and studying needs good planning. if not you will end up like me now all stressed up, getting up early in the morning, dragging myself to work and off straight to class. it isn't that bad taking up part time jobs while studying but it's bad when you are working in the morning and having classes at night! you simply just can't stay focus and pay full attention cause all the hard task during work and energy burning work+travelling really kills you. but i know after this week everything will be much more managable. thank god. but it's still not friday. customer's service line really sucks BIG TIME. you get shit everyday and if for one day you are safe from nasty people, complaints, stupid Qs and sarcastism, you should really consider yourself very blessed by god. oh yea. -laughs. thought of just not turning up tomorrow cause i really need some sleep if not i will wither. my face will wither, my eye bags will wither and my brains will be cease but the greatest thought in mind is life isn't a bed of roses. how profound. haha. inspired? yah to hell. like most people working, shit always happen and you can never avoid them and why i'm still going on?it's prolly because working is never as simple and easy. Nevertheless, in the near future it's gonna be even harder. so i rather face the fact now than when i'm bout closer to a serious job = much more and serious shit. ((: thanks for the advise 'daddy' yang you really speak my dad's mind. hahaha alright. i'm going to bed now. selene: sorry that we have to postpone our trip but will make it next week . you must be thinking i'm outta my mind. lol. if they call you. go for it man. good pay/quite easy at times/short hours/relax- physically/ stressed up- mentally. and you have my name in your profile. so am i one of the strawberry or cheese cakes? haha.

life is beautiful with you;
11:30 PM

it was quite a shocking news and i knew you wasn't prepared for the teenie-weenie bit that had happened. but what ever it is you told me that you have grow to be stronger so don't brood over the past too much. i know i can't stop you from thinking about even a single detail of the past but at the end of the day you should be glad that all these had ended, you got over it and now you found your gem. i believe god is fair to people, and people like him will burn in hell. just love yourself better and be more on guard on somethings. ok? sentosa date is coming.. hoho. i'm so excited . i read this mail the other day. somehow realised i once did the same mistake too. i wonder off looking for a field to know what's a padi when i found one i thought it was it but actually i mistaken it and i believe everyone experienced that too. -luffs. that's my unawared first "love". -smirk- then from others hand i found out what's a padi like, i got myself one. but it was for the sake of having one . so in the end it wasn't meant to be mine i let it go. then one day, my least expected one came. we were off living a very sweet and happy life , infuatated and possessive. when things got over the border, problems started pouring in. emotions got uncontrollable. i wasn't skilled enough to take care of it, it withered. i wither too. haha. then when i got to master it better i found one though it wasn't my biggest padi but would be my medium sized corn. over some ridicule reasons, i decided to move on. as i kept walking i realised there's nothing more infront of me. i wasn't suppose to turn back so i just have to keep walking........... some people can spend their whole life looking for one padi. some ppl go around picking up many padi but ended up without any. when they realised it,the sweetest and biggest one had passed. the medium yet not as sweet one was given away and the next moment you found out that the field had left with nothing. great. -claps- so what? wait for miracles to happen la. (: i'm so glad for my bestfriend that she has gotten over it and found her one. so be blissed n blessed that you got it ok. ((: he's the rotten one. let him rot and you shall live your life with more colourful butterflies, gaiety flowers, dazzling sunshine and sweet strawberries. (you must be wondering why all this. cause this what a wonderful life can be for miss cheenehneh) wanna bet?. -luffs. just wanna say love you bestfriend :D

life is beautiful with you;
1:32 PM

extra lil` treat the remaining single souls of freedom. -laughs.

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3:42 PM

had a great day today buying quite lots of nonsense actually. as usual i have punctuality problem for meetings. i'm sorry ((: first stop was tampinese mall we took this "retardly" slow bus, it took damn long to reach. i kept having weak knees today. tampinese seriously hasn't got much that interest us. we just walked around and for all i knew we only went into isetan, the body shop and the toilet then we headed straight to town. weird thing about ppl on the train today. they like to squeeze into the corner standing space where we were. they just love to have a lil share of ours. weird. i'm crowned the flower lady today. i bought alots of flowers for myself. lol. for nuts i know. just to make myself more wanted this valentines' CAN! they were just too irresistable.. got myself : 4 masks (lol i don't knw why too) flowers blush! = SDG65 sick it's mon again. god... alright. good night to all :D and thanks to lene for the accompany today. i want a big white lily next((: -grin-

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1:10 AM

okay this is what dumb lovers do :P acutally, it was rather cute i should say. just wanna share this cute lil thing and show how this pair shares the same interest in the art of messing up food after eating. TSK! practically they ALWAYS do this. heh heh ((: -LAUGHS this lil entry here is dedicated to these silly yet happy couple. my bestfriend miss yoda cheenehneh. sounds good. i know she's gonna scream at me if she see this. but who cares. -laughs @copyright of selene&ilhammi

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1:38 AM

what a great disappointment. sigh. all the hard work didn't really pay off. so. what to do. wailed and cried over it. don't know to be disappointed or happy. the least expected really happen. lol. for both subjects. so! the only thing i can do now is to put my hands together and pray hard that i get into my choices. oh well! everyone should really catch "i'm not stupid too" it's a super funny, inspiring and touching production. jack neo's really rock the whole threatre. there were too many "sniffs" and blowing of noses even from guys and of course i'm one of them la. i cried like a fool cause it was really touching. other than tatanic i think there isn't any other movie had swept me off this way. just uncontrollable OK! my eyes hurts so much at night due to bursting too much of tears glence. -luffs. alright. to those who did well, good for you ((: and those not so good, like me. well well, may the force be with you. yes ((: just feeling a little insatisfied.

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6:47 PM

it's less than 24hours away. hopefully the post will come in the morning. good luck to all and hopefully good news are on their way ((:

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11:46 PM

i'm feeling super tired.. didn't have a good sleep after i came back from msia and the accounting part in class is really draining my brain juices out. -ewww.- had dinner with aqila after lesson. a very nice person and somehow the girls in class are more talkative now, thank goodness. i've been doing Qs and Qs. chew and chew my sweets all the way, throwing the wrappers all over my table and my runny nose is leaking like a tap since yesterday night. anyways, this blog layout things took me the whole afternoon and my retarded computer auto shut down thrice and now all the codes and hexs are running in my brain. another day more to go. bet tomorrow 'l be as hard and tiring too. accounts is driving me nuts and there will be more to be busy with for the up coming weeks. results, selina n i going for DAE,more chiong of worksheets and examination Qs, spring tests, lessons and longer lessons. ohmygoodnessholymollyshit. EXAM IS ONLY 2 MONTHS away. do i have to go through this shit before my birthday arrive. there's always a prize to pay for. i'm going to get my shower and continue reading my notes :( night. that is GOOD SHIT. MUST WATCH. enjoy ppl((: i just thought of chai when i heard this. maybe it's because he bleeds just to know he's alive. haha. ok. just kidding k ass. bet he will coming haunting me down if he sees this. anyways, this music clip rock my socks . WORD!

life is beautiful with you;
11:41 PM

by miss selene ong. i'm loving it.

life is beautiful with you;
1:38 PM

at aunty xanthe's house (reunion dinner I)

home. (reunion dinner II)

new year's day 1- morning

new year's day2- afternoonCNY was great this year. 2 reunion dinners. first day of new year there was lots of babies the quadruplet, lil carmen and her new born baby sister, charmaine and my closest cousin's baby chloe. they were super adorable and playful. the whole house was filled with children's screaming, crying and shouting. oh there's so many to say about this CNY but i guess i will let the pictures tell the story. ((:

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10:12 PM