Sunday, September 04, 2005
temp reaches 38.4 this afternoon. and i ate 6 panadols in total. and now temp is 37.6 hmmm. i think i'm ok... ok the whole afternoon i was suppose to rest... R.E.S.T . but. i didn't . i ended up chatting and web-camming with lene. lol. it's fun though. and we were totally crazy. haha. and mayb that made me not that sick. it's a good way not meeting when we are unwell but still see each other. haha. but i sound like lene's my gf. hmmhmmm -grin-. but that's not only for her. maine and ann should have one too. and probably we will never have to step out of our doorstep anymore .
and maybe this fever made me think about kim a lil. but wait wait. NOT MISS. i f***ing hell won't MISS him... and definately not that face of his if i do. but no IF when it comes to him ok . and i was just thinking that. this person can promise and swear his ass off. about how true his promises will be just like the sun that rise in the east everyday and the stars will always be by the moon. blah blah. but break and crashed somebody's world and all his promises by say " oh nothing is everlasting. everything change." and this kinda jerk shall just die and our mother Earth will definately feel much better for sure. it was lene that started saying everything about promises. then i start thinking of it. ah ong. maine's really making total sense when she says that. -grin- * you know why i grin don't you* since you let it go that time. and chose to believe that absence make the heart grow fonder. BUT he didn't come back and it did not grow. so it's not meant to be. and you should nv lost faith in that sentence. because this don't work on him doesn't mean it doesn't work on someone you will meet soon. ((: haha. and it's too soon to really get over it i know. but it will be over soon. i know what's on your mind bout not being appreciated. i'm VERY honest now. i was talking to you at that moment. i have you. yes. but i wanna get ann too. that's y i call her. it's definately not because you did so much and everything was from your heart ( i can see) but not by doing it just to show but in the end i call her. NO!. i want the both of you. so pls drop that thought ok.. moreover, you already said it hurts to know that i was... so i won't let you hear it either. it's your presence and not about helping me to SOLVE things. and sorry to make you worry so much. hmmhmm -smile- love you.
life is beautiful with you;
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