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CITY OF ANGELS
Friday, September 02, 2005

i jumped off from my bed cause i decide to blog about this. after this long talk with lene and my sister just now. i came to realise it's getting confusing. and "it" i'm referring is yes. LOVE. first i nv bother bout what love actually is. cause i know if i bother to think i will come out with alot of analogIES. haha. but yes i still decide to ask cause it's bothering me the whole day. i agreed that love itself is just not enough. there's still many other factors that will affect a relationship. character, behaviour, perceptions blah blah blah. so it's not just by LOVING each other you are meant to be together. so it's like one out of the billion people outside. but that's not my point. haha. is love something that you have to accept someone as WADEVER they are and not hoping or asking them to change for you whereby you should love them for whoever they are and this is love. because all parents love their children no matter how they will change as they grow up by the years. and yes no doubt that that kind of love is TRUE. so it that it? but some says love is when you are willing to change for another party because you love him/her and you want him/her to be happy but by living such life is really hard. but yet there's love. nothing of such is difficult or pathetic about. because love make everything works. everything flows and love work wonders. but that wouldn't be yourself!. and of all reasons. it's still love... when i said if love is sooooo confusing then y people still wannabe in it. and sis told me without love you are just an empty shell. everyone needs to be assured, secured and pampered.and you rather not to love since you think it's so difficult and "troublesome" you are just avoiding and running away from it. cause you lost faith and you got no confident. and that only antidote to this is till you see and find your source that keep up that faith and confident in you. when she said that, i felt she really hit me. but there's really no alternative for this? hmmm. but seriously i felt guilty when i know i'm actually running away from it all the time. i rather choose not to be in it. cause i felt it was asking for trouble. but i thought if i really met someone i truly love there's no way i can run. but no! because love itself is JUST NOT ENOUGH! so what is it? but i'm not totally cold and heartless. ok. no one is heartless. and i'm definately clear about how i felt towards it. just like when someone did the stupidest thing you ever seen and it's SUPER embarrassing if others do it , you will prolly cover your face or walk off pretending you don't know him/her. but yet you laugh over it and still carry that lil smile secretly when you think of it again. but why does it come so strong at times and leave so easily at times too. and if our golly adam and eve did not eat that damn apple what are we now. and if adam and eve were chinese. they will prolly eat the snake instead of that apple . haha. then what will happen? maybe we will still be naked and we won't know what is the 7 odious offences. we will be in heaven with no troubles but happiness. but we are here. to suffer. and i'm actually looking forward to die. i know it's ridiculous. but yes. but what is wrong being strong and vigilant just to protect yourself from being hurt. if to let loose and make yourself fall all the way into it without considering other factors will make you find better love and have better life. i will do what it takes to let myself fall into it. but there's always a start and definately an end. if there's end why do you start. but people say it's the time between that really worth all the tears u shed even when it come to the end. sickening. sounds sadistic. but so far from what ever i see and heard today. it's something you change for a better SELF for YOURSELF AND also him/her. and when i mean for a better self it's definately something that will do good to yourself being in that way and also do good to him the same time. and if you love someone you DO NOT EXPECT TOO MUCH or expect MORE from them. you don't demand things from them just for youself. and you love them for who they are but yet both of you are WILLING to bring down your egos and work things out together. and change for the better. for SELF and each other. it's not about one person doing everything, to change, accommodate and to please. it should really be BOTH. and truly appreciate each other's effort by the end of the day. although people always tend to see or i should say 9 out of 10 people tend to look at the bad side of someone instead of the good. but if you think that everything actually comes with a good intention especially it's someone you have true feelings for maybe this will save the both of you from alot of quarrels and arguements. and with all this that's when you can really find the balancing point ... haha. happily ever after... how nice. -claps... getting sickening here. i'm going to bed now. man it's freaking 4 am in the morning.

life is beautiful with you;
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