Friday, July 15, 2005
this morning i couldn't get up. not becuz i wanna laze longer in my bed but i felt so weak. maybe was becuz i only had breakfast the dae before till todae morning. argh.. then i went back to slp n dreamt i got together with @#O*#))(
^%&##*@$&!!!. i hate him la. that pervertic face he got, tsk! short n ugly. aiya. lene's fault talk so much bout all this things before i go to bed. n i felt so weird if anyone start mentioning this person over n over before i go to slp i will dream of him or her. weird. i think i'm really ageing . haha. especially this few daes. start talking rubbish when i'm tired. haha . suddenly sae something outta nothing. crazy. and usually i get mood swings when i'm tired but surprisingly now i will still push myself to do it and get it done. n start feeling that i'm so emotionless when it comes to relationship.kuku. felt a bit not rite . lyk an empty shell. or maybe juz tt ppl ard mi felt too much over certain things n when i don't feel it i start to think i'm weird.
someone's.. ya someone la. you know who. feeling something but she's denying it with her eyes straying ard. cuz she's dun wanna carry false hopes n then when truth hits her whether it's good or bad . she's thinking that she can't manage her feelings n emotions but wad ever it is i will be there dun worry. see i'm an expert yea. cuz i'm not emo. HAHA. you said i'm lyk metal. but i'm not cold blooded ok! juz felt numb. but will revive soon. as soon as the kueh itself. take back your words. so i'll be your tranquillizer. no worries yea..
todae's rehearsal is damn fucked up. everything screwed up. sudden change of music. time. everything la. no sequencing . n i gotta juz dance with the flow of the music n the laser. nice one. - applause- i'm in trouble i know. but juz do it once n for all for two daes., tolerate. ppl there are damn cheap skate. trying to cut price. bragain. paying this but wanting to get results tt is 3 times of the price. get a life man. n ppl there has eyes grown on their heads. ha. i can't believe my sis is working with those pricks. but lucky she has miguel there. i'm damn pissed when i heard bout the change of sound. lyk wth we plan everything n all. you wanna change. but still gotta do it. cuz it's business.. hmm. i reached bout 9 pm n leave at 130am . they were doing some sound test. projection test . lights. blah blah. n no air con. i'm so slpy n frasturated till chang da called n calm abit of my anger down... SAVE ME........
