Tuesday, July 19, 2005
oh. mum left yesterdae but i din have the mood to blog. when my sis was telling me that my mum came into the room n told her how rude i was n how wild i'm getting. n asked her to give me some lectures. when she just kept quiet n nod. i'm just puzzled with wad she wans. if i work they say i'm always out. not spending enuff time at home. FINE!. when i quit my job they say i stayed at home too much. then later say that i go out with frens till very late. i was just wondering she's not home to see and i think i'm very sure i'm rotting my way at home every single day. so wad's wrong with her. i think i'm just the scape goat of my sis. or actually i was alil at fault cause i din call her up recently. n my sis din visit her since she came back from uk. but she was telling us another time that she seriously think that it's ok cause we learn from her. she's always in msia n she don't spend quality time with her mum too. so we are her kids we are like that she totally understand it. n NOW. she's getting emotional over it. and said that she wasn't with us since we were young so when we grow up we don't need her. n thinks she owe us a whole life of things.. but we nv said anything bout not being with us cause we know she loves us cause she's our mother. so i really don't know wad's the problem i don't know wad to say to her to make her feel better. or it's jus me that i'm growing up but that made her feels so insecure cause her daughters are leaving her very soon. then i rather not grow up ( i know it's dumb) how silly. my mother has this kinda thinking . -luffs. hmmm but i was kinda disappointed when she sae to my sis that i " yue lai yue bu xiang hua". since young i behaved myself . i take responsibilities for my own actions. i try to be understanding cause i know she will be much more worry for us than any other mother outside. cause she's not with us. and i did not blame her cause i know her reasons n i respect her decision for moving out. and not coming back often. n she's always back because of us. n if you are thinking because i have a bf i don't care bout this family. i think you should fucking reflect yourself n your comment. first i don't have a bf. second i take family first.n even if i have one i believe he will respect me for taking my family first. and your dumbest and ugliest daughter of yours is not leaving. crap
