Monday, July 18, 2005
hmmm todae is complete shit for me la. mum got emo for nothing. start screaming n shouting. -faint. how childish. then in the morning my voice was totally sore. sounds like a crow. when rq called wanting bck his cam. ha. tat's the worst part. yea he wanted to come up. but i said i will meet him downstairs. hmmm. when he took his cam. n i smiled so so so fakely , turn n left immediately. hmmm. i dunno but the next moment i received this msg. n he claims that he wanted to send it to someone else. but i know it's bout me. " i did not do anything and i feel like crying now" ha. i was just thinking if i stand there for another second i can't imagine wad will happen. but anyways. i juz wanna sae. if there's any chance i won't be trying so hard to run away. and i guess i made a wrong decision on meeting you personally to pass your cam back to you. cause i just dun wannabe rude. n be nice enough to say thank you. so. yes don't misunderstand. but i dun wanna be nasty to you cause we knew each other since we were like 10? i dun wanna spoil this. n i believe i'm not the only angel among gers. ha i think i suck being a gf.
