Tuesday, June 14, 2005
k wad's the deal. i think i'd been fucking stupid n idiotic the nite before for a trade of nothing but a stomach full of anger n eventually i think i totally ridicule myself . till i can't believe i was doing such stupid things. that is not me. well i think i USED to be there in no time for someone that i think everyone of my gerfren know it the best. thou now my presence doesn't help. but stupidly n brainlessly i was there last nite. fucking things i got was stares. attitudes. irritants n wadever fucking shit you can name. i felt lyk i was a clown, an IDIOT trying to cool the damn situation down and to cover my anger over getting all this shit. and i honestly i felt so so so dumb at the moment for doing something that is so not mi . n it's not for anyone out there. thanks alot. hmmm. i think this will really be the last time i will be there.. wad the hell. n bout heads high above. i should sae one higher than another la. aniwaez i hate to be compared between you n me. cuz i am fucking unhappy bout being the guinea pig of your relationship test n i think it's utterly uncourteous for a fren to do so. yes n i'm still stupid enuff to be there(times a 100 times. i can't stop saying this cuz i'm still feeling utterly useless for tt). i think your bf loves you so much it's juz tt his head is so head above. and it's so idiotic to be mentioned in this relationship. i juz hate the pic. the whole damn picture of yesterdae. i felt lyk shit. damn. lene i guess only you can understand that kinda deep shit i was in. count mi outta this. thanks alot. happy ever after ending for the both of you .
conclude that. i can't believe i was a clown. can't believe i was so kaypo. i can't believe i was in love with someone i dunno. and i can't believe i bring all this upon myself all in ONE nite.
ya n got fucking nagged lyk hell bout not sleeping at late nights n waking up in early morning. cuz i slept at 8 n woke up at 5.00 ( n i'm feeling lyk . oh-not-so-rite. now. n it's for no body. no objective.) yes n oso not eatting at home not eating at the rite time. WAD'S THE FUCKING PROB MAN!
